[pitty..party] of one

First of all, let me say sorry for the gap is awesomeness...i forgot my password, then forgot the email i used to sign in...the last 3 months have been a blur to me...[kendall keeps me busy, and not thinking clearly] LOL

The other night I was standing outside the bar watching cars go by.[it was a slow night] when a guy i know [just from the bar] stopped and asked me how i had been doing, and that he was glad to see me back.  I told him I was alright, and that i was glad to be back...then when I asked him how he was doing, and he began to tell me.

He started to tell me that the last few months had been pretty rough on him he had had a few deaths [which I can relate too] and had hit a few rough patches in life.  As he went on and on i thought.."OMG is this guy ever goin to shut up".."it's getting cold out here"...ohh man i wish someone would walk in so i could leave him"...what is he tryin to do make me feel pitty for him. But as i looked in his eyes, i realized that this wasnt just some pitty party, this guy was really hurting, so i continued to listen, but i had nothing to say...i didnt know what to say, i almost felt awful because the only things i could say were "oh my gosh" or "yeah".

After a few minutes of talking...orr listening i should say. He thanked me for listening, and gave me a hug.  That was most sincere hug i have gotten in a long time.  It made me feel good knowing that all i had to do was listen, and it made someone's day a little bit brighter, and feel a little bit better. 

I saw that same guy tonight, and he had put on a smile, and was having a good time...never even mentioned all of the rough things that we had talked about earlier on in the week.  It got me thinking a lot about how people go around and want a pitty party for the stupidest things, some people make stuff up because they want the attention.  It's almost like it's their lifes mission to make people feel sorry for them everyday.  To those people i say this...why MAKE your life a complete misery just for attention.  There are people out there who are REALLY struggling with things in their life....and you cant even tell from the outside.  The last few months i have realized that life if a GIFT, and it can be taken away in a heartbeat.  Do you want that last beat to be forgotten...or remembered??

 So instead of going around wanting pitty on yourself, take a long hard look in the mirror at the person you are...and remember you only get one chance to live...MAKE IT COUNT!!!!!!! Go have a lil fun in life!!!! :)